Excerpt #2
I
freeze, mid-punch, a shudder rolling through me as I finally surrender to the
pain. Sinking to my knees on the mat, I stare up at her, pleading silently for…
something. Closeness. Comfort. Just… anything to tear me out of this cloud of
despair.
Yasmine kneels in front of me and takes me in
her slender arms, holding me close, seeming not to care about the sweat. I
cling to her, unable to comprehend how arms so willowy could be so strong, or
how just the feel of her against me is enough to soothe the ache eating me up
inside.
“That’s
enough,” she whispers, stroking the short strands of hair on my head. “It
wasn’t your fault, Dax. Do you hear me? There is nothing you could have done to
save those people.”
Somewhere,
deep down inside, I know she’s right. All I could have succeeded in doing was
getting my crew and me killed by being in the right place at the right time.
“It’s not that,” I pant between heavy breaths. My chest is heaving as I cling
to Yasmine, anchoring myself to her to keep from falling to the floor.
“I
know.” Her arms tighten around me. “I feel guilty too. We should have been
there… we should have died today. It doesn’t seem fair that we lived and they
didn’t.”
“Isn’t
that the most fucked up thing you’ve ever heard?” I say, laughing hysterically.
My shoulders are shaking as I pull away from Yasmine and stand to my feet. “My
condolences to the poor bastards killed in today’s explosion, but damn it, I
sure am glad to be alive!” I laugh again, taking another swing at the heavy
bag. “Who the hell feels happy about living when so many others have died?”
Yasmine
comes toward me, her hands clenched in front of her tightly. She’s trembling
like a leaf in the wind, and I know she needs me just as much as I need her
right now. “I don’t know, Dax. Normal people, I guess. I don’t know why these
kinds of things happen, but I do know that they happen for a reason. God has a
plan for our lives, and we weren’t meant to die today.”
I
shake my head incredulously. “God? How can you bring God into this? Have you
watched the news? Haven’t you seen enough suffering since they dropped those
nukes on us? What the hell kind of God lets these kinds of things happen?”
Of
course Yasmine believes in God. Why wouldn’t she? Someone that good and kind,
that full of hope and love… it makes sense to me. I am far more jaded. “God is
everywhere,” she says, reaching up to caress my face. Her touch is cool against
my flaming hot skin and I lean into it, searching for comfort. “He is in
everything. Even tragedy. Even death. It isn’t His fault people have torn his
world apart. I think that’s why we’re still here, to right the wrongs. It’s our
calling.”
I
try to smile at her, but my face is frozen, hard and emotionless. Still, my voice
hitches a bit when I answer her. “You believe it’s our destiny to live when so
many others have died?”
She
nods. “I do. I also believe in you, Dax. You’re being too hard on yourself. You
lost a battle today, but you’ve won so many others. And you’ll keep winning.
Until, one day, the fight will be over and we can live in peace.”
I
take her in my arms and lift her. Her legs come around my waist as I kiss her.
My lips aren’t gentle and my touch isn’t light, but she clings to me, answering
with a desperate ferocity of her own.
“Peace,”
I whisper against her mouth. “Someday.”
She
nods, her lips brushing mine again and again, teasingly slow and achingly
sweet. “Yes.”
“We
can be together without all this death and turmoil. A normal life.”
Her
eyes widen as she holds on to me, her legs crossed at my lower back. “You want
that? With me?”
“Yeah,
don’t you? A chance to walk down the street holding hands? To go on a real date
without whispers, stares, or fear? To know that we have a future beyond here
and now?”
A
wide smile splits her face. “Of course I want it, Dax. I just thought… well, I
figured you’d want that with… someone else.”
Blythe’s
face flashes through my mind, and I’m unprepared for how much that stings. I
did want that once, and maybe somewhere deep in my heart, I still do. But I
learned a long time ago to play the cards I’ve been dealt. I’ve been working
with a shitty deck from day one: deadbeat dad, rough neighborhood, drug
addiction, a girl who couldn’t ever love me the way I loved her. But this—a wildcard
named Yasmine—is my ace in the hole, my chance at love and happiness.
“Do
you see anyone else here?”
She
bites her lower lip, shaking her head. “No.”
“Then
that should tell you everything you need to know.”
Excerpt #3
A
weapon’s muzzle suddenly comes up to the back of my head and I freeze, lifting
my hands and the CBX with it. An M.P. in white, fiberglass armor circles around
me, the gun now focused on my forehead. I can see just by looking that he has
it on the kill setting.
“Look,
man,” I say calmly. “I’m not one of them. I’m on your side here.”
He
raises the face shield of his helmet, and I’m face to face with a fresh
recruit. He can’t be any older than eighteen and skinny as a rail, shaking like
a leaf. “Don’t come any closer,” he says, his high-pitched voice trembling with
the force of his fear. Around us, the fight rages on. “You’re all the same,
just a bunch of freaks.”
I
shrug. “Come on, dude. We both know I could have killed you by now. But I’m not
here to fight you. We just want justice. Look around you and you’ll see the
real killers, the real freaks. Turn your gun on them, and I’ll do the same.”
He
frowns. “Fight with you?”
“With
me, next to me, behind me, whatever. What’s your name, kid?”
He
swallows noisily, his Adam’s apple bobbing in his throat. “Ethan.”
I
nod. “Okay, Ethan, I’m Dax. You got a girl, Ethan?”
Ethan
lowers the gun. “Yeah… I mean, kind of. She doesn’t really know I like her.”
I
smile. “Been there, man, done that. I got a girl too, back home. I kind of told
her I loved her a few days ago.”
Ethan’s
eyebrows shot up. “Whoa, that’s huge.”
“Right?
Big stuff. Plus, I promised her I’d try to make it back alive. The way I see
it, I stand a better chance of that if we can try to fight together, even if
it’s just for today. What do you think? Let’s end this shit so we can get home.
You have a girl to win over, and I’d rather not piss mine off by coming home in
a body bag.”
Ethan
nods. “Yeah. Yeah, okay, sure.”
My
hand grasps his shoulder just as a flying metal disc comes whizzing at his
head. He cries out as I take him to the ground, just barely saving him from
being decapitated. I’m not quite as lucky. The metal disc slices into my cheek
as it flies by, laying it open. Pain explodes along the left side of my face,
leaving a trail of fire that goes from my jaw to just beneath my eye. Another
inch and I’d be sporting a falsie like Blythe. Behind Ethan, one of the Rejects
has some sort of makeshift gun mounted on his shoulder. It’s the size of a
small cannon, and it is shooting another disc at me. Dropping for cover and
avoiding another gash, I grab Ethan’s shoulder again.
“You
good?”
He
stares at me with wide eyes and nods. “Yeah.”
“Cool.
Stay down while I kill this dickhead.”
This
time when he fires at me, I’m ready. The pistons in my leg joints fire rapidly
and I jump, my boot connecting with the disc and kicking it back the way it
came. I give Ethan a hand up as the Reject’s head slides from his shoulders,
taken off by his own disc.
“Can
dish it out but can’t take it,” I grumble as I help Ethan to his feet.
He
smiles at me appreciatively. “You saved my life, man. Thanks.”
“No
need to thank me. Now, let’s go save some others.”
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